Clear Path to Peace

Many of us go through really hard times. My hardest time was when my mother died, by her own hand, when I was young, pregnant, confused and almost penniless. You probably have a different, painful story that affected your life. What did you do when the traumatic thing happened?  What are you doing with the memory of it? Are you open to jumping into the River of Love, no matter what happened – or might happen in the future?

The River of Love is the healing experience of Divine contact. It’s sometimes called the Holy Spirit, the Divine Mother, Father God, or the “peace that passeth all understanding.” It was the only thing that kept me sane and whole enough to raise my children well, despite my mother’s illness and its effect on me. It helped me learn that I am a lot stronger than anything that shows up in my life, even the shock and pain of my mother’s suicide.

It took years to receive all of the lessons this experience gave to me. I needed to learn that the Grace of God offers a more powerful love than what my human mother could give me. It’s a love that never leaves, never gives up, and always heals when we allow it into our hearts.

Through this life journey, I feel humbled and in awe of the great mystery. I wonder where my mother is now, and how she is doing with the lessons that she learned. I don’t know the answers to these questions, but I feel the movement of my soul in holding them. I am open-hearted and open-minded, calling for more wisdom.

Life gave me this experience to show me that NO MATTER WHAT, the River of Love will float me home to a deep inner sense of security and serenity. This river taught me to release my sadness, and find gratitude for the lessons I’d learned. It gave me the joy and freedom of knowing I am never isolated or without a friend. The River of Love showed me that the edges to all things are friendly…if I relax into the safety I share with the Divine.

In the past, I rarely spoke or wrote about what happened with my mother. Even now, I feel reticent to discuss it. But I also feel that we need to share our life experiences – not to wallow in the pain of them, but to transform difficulties that seemed impossible to overcome.When really tough things happen, using our minds to figure out what to do doesn’t help very much.  We need more space, more breath, deep intuition and a lot of prayer and true forgiveness to feel whole again.

I give swimming lessons in the River of Love. It’s OK to get your feet wet – or plunge right in with a full, naked leap! See you on the river…..

I received this from Tikkun  (to heal, repair and transform the world), a peace-centered Jewish organization. I hope you will ask these questions with me, whether you are Jewish or not.  These questions are for all of us:

NEXT YEAR IN A JERUSALEM REDEEMED THROUGH JUSTICE AND THOSE RETURNING TO HER THROUGH RIGHTEOUSNESS

The Four Children at the Seder Table:  Which Child Am I?

As we celebrate this Holiday of Freedom, the ending of slavery, we ask, “Who am I, when I hear of human rights abuses? Who will I choose to be when I know that others are suffering?”

Will I be one who does not ask? Will I close the newspaper or turn off the television so that I do not hear? Will I turn my head and heart away?

Will I ask only simple questions? “What is this?”  Will I ask what, but never why?

Will I let the evil impulse, my yetzer hara ask: “What has this to do with me?” Will I let the problem belong only to the victims and the do-gooders? Will I distance myself from those in need?

Or will I strive to act in wisdom, to ask: “What are the underlying causes of the problem and what needs to be done to stop the abuse and free the oppressed? What are the laws and what does Gd expect of me?”

May Gd open the eyes of those who do not see, the mouths of those who do not ask, and the hearts of those who do not care, and grant us the wisdom to open our hands to our fellow humans when they are in need  – the hand of generosity, the hand of support, the hand of peace and friendship.
— From Passover: Ridding ourselves of the khametz of arrogance, by Rabbi Arik W. Ascherman, Rabbis for Human Rights, Israel

When Jesus walked the planet, he didn’t have a plan to create a massive holiday of gift-giving…complete with stressed out gift givers.  Jesus came to remind us of our eternal holiness, our pure innocence, and the love of God for each one of us.

That is what I receive from his message, anyway.  What do you receive?

This Holy Day season, let’s remember that it is a season of peace.

This means that we can be peaceful about the season! We don’t need to create anxiety about buying stuff, or whether or not we’ve given “enough” to our kids or family members.  Even children who are used to getting a lot of presents can be re-trained to value gratitude, service to others, and simple (maybe handmade) gifts instead of the mountains of plastic they expect. Re-training ourselves and our children is going to take some work and inner fortitude. I know we can do it – if we commit to it.

This isn’t simply a stress management issue. In addition to our emotional health, we need to safeguard the resources of our beautiful planet. So cutting back on Christmas consumerism is an essential environmental issue as well.

Peace is our birthright. It is our very nature. We’ve lost track of that, and Christmas stress is a great barometer for how far we can lose ourselves in the expectations and habits of consumer society. But we can divorce ourselves from the madness, and claim the simplicity of true Christ consciousness.  It is within us, every moment of every day. Let’s find it together.

Merry Christmas!

I just received this link and it is beautiful! If you click on this, you will see Americans all over the world, standing on bridges as a symbol of the bridge to change…http://blip.tv:80/file/1338283  If you are an American citizen of voting age, PLEASE VOTE. Support clean, honest voting in the United States! I support Barack Obama because he stands for health, sanity, environmental sustainability, peace, and respect for all people.  How about you? As a peace educator and forgiveness counselor, I’ve been inspired by the unity of purpose and strength of caring that characterize the Obama campaign.  Obama’s supporters come in all sizes, shapes and colors, just like the citizens of this country.We can learn to live together in peace, and to export peace and goodwill around the world.  Yes we can! 

What a time of upheaval and change!  And what a time of no upheaval and no change at all!

I don’t know about you, but the past week has been a time when all of my *&#! came up. Any place where I wasn’t trusting my connection to the One came to greet me with a devilish grin. Yikes!  What an unpleasant crash into a hell world of my own creation. I notice that I get really bent out of shape if I get worried about the future. In reality, in this moment I’m fine…doing my thing, healthy, with a roof over my head and all the blessings of my beautiful life…

In my imagined future, I can create all sorts of scary possibilities. And it sucks. Reeling my mind back to this moment NOW has taken all of my patience, strength and self-love. I know I am not alone. Everyone I work with and play with is also feeling this deep inner challenge of remaining present in the Presence…or losing our way and coming back…So if you are feeling slightly or majorly insane these days, go into your heart and reach out to all of your teammates…the incredible souls around the world (and beyond) who are committed to the awakening of Love and Peace and Health and Justice on Earth.  There are millions of us, and we are strong. Tap into the group determination that we yield, especially if you’ve temporarily lost your way.

Together, we awaken. Together, we support each other and learn to love Life. God is perfect love.  And so are we.

I received this email from Randall Butisingh, a wonderful, wise man I met through the Internet.  Randall is an elder to almost all of us, since he is in his 90’s. I share his words to inspire you:

“We are all, when we choose, 100% saints and also 100% sinners. That is the challenge in our lives. In the present we are faced with our greatest challenges; a diminishing environment, economic deficiency, attack by terrorists, the proliferation of the Aids virus and other dreadful diseases; all caused by man’s greed, his excesses, his selfishness and recalcitrance.  But this should not affect those who love and have the inner peace.  Bear in mind, the darker the night, the brighter and more brilliant the stars. So it is with evil – the greater the evil, love and mercy and forgiveness manifest to a greater degree. This we can see in the work of selfless individuals, charitable organizations and benevolent governments.  What happens outside of us is of very little consequence and is transitory, but what takes place inside of us is what greatly matters; like the continuous ticking of the clock in the most violent storm.

Here is a stanza from a hymn that bears me out:

“A faith that shines more bright and clear

When tempests rage without;

That when in danger knows no fear,

In darkness feels no doubt.”

Thank you, Randall, for your long life of service, faith and love. You are a blessing to this Earth.

This morning I stretched my body, emotions and mind in yoga class. I was deep in prayer about being truly naked before God. I wanted to release anything that appeared to be in my way, any thought or feeling that could obscure the glory of the Divine – for me – in each moment.

As I traveled into my breath, in and out of yoga poses, I also journeyed in and out of perceiving myself as a separate person. Intellectually, I know that my individuality is a scam, and I’ve touched upon the vast, unfettered Truth of Goddess many times. This morning, and more and more recently, my prayer was (and is) to experience the vastness on an ongoing basis.

I began to sense Aliveness in the air around me. Not only in the very atoms and molecules, but beyond physicality. I started to drink copiously from the prana which completely filled what appeared to be space all around me – it stretched from one centimeter beyond my skin all the way to immense creations of divine intelligence, to “places” that my mind has not yet imagined. Everything was seamlessly linked inside this river of love. I floated in joy….and remembered to include my body and what is inside my body in the river, too.

I’ve been getting bored with only tasting the good stuff – and only sometimes. I’m tired of snacking…OK – enough noshing, as we say in Yiddish. I’m pulling for the eternal experience of experiencing eternity. I’m desiring freedom with the full extent of my glorious being. Can you relate? There are many, many people who are sharing this prayer with me. We are a team, and we are awakening together.

Here are the words to a song I wrote that describes my desire for the mystical touch…and my experience of the Beloved One. Hope you enjoy it.

River of Love

wash away my fear

River of Love

take away my tears

River of Love

cleanse me to my soul

purify me

River of Love

cleanse me to my soul

Call me and I’ll sing it to you.

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We are all swimming in this river, but we don’t remember, most of the time…and this is changing…there is no place else to be…

Come swim with me in the River of Love.

In the last few days, I’ve come even deeper into a realization about the connection between anger, violence and sadness. It is grief that lurks behind destruction…and the willingness to feel and release sadness is the cure and the balm for our pain.

Where does this grief come from, you ask? It grows from our collective refusal to live in accordance with Divine Love and its ways: union, blessing, expansion, mercy, comfort and caring for each other and our beautiful green planet. There is a shared, tragic and fearful howling that is constantly baying a mournful melody beneath our sleepy awareness. This is the grief I’m talking about, although we rarely recognize it and even more rarely give ourselves some breathing room to feel it.

I recently came across a short Buddhist tale about a monk who was crying at his master’s grave. When asked by a traveler, “Why are you crying? I thought you were enlightened!” the monk replied, “Because I am sad.” (from Everyday Grace, by Marianne Williamson)

When I read these poignant words, I thought about how much violent behavior could be transformed if we really take this story to heart. Just think – if we all gave ourselves permission to feel sad – what would our world be like?

We’d no longer answer, “Fine” to the ubiquitous question “How are you?”

Instead, we might say, “Oh, I’m feeling the tender stabbing and ripping feeling of my heart as it opens to grief.” Then we’d both pause, and take a breath together, standing by each other as we released our sadness into pools of trust and love. And it wouldn’t have to be a problem, or a drama, or a cheerleading session — just a quiet recognition of suffering as it appears here on Earth.

We could breathe and relax and feel together, and then feel a whole lot better, and closer. We’d go on about our days with more creative energy and more compassion for the next sisters and brothers who came along…and when we asked them, “How are you?” we’d pause to listen to the ringing truth of an answer that might, or might not, contain some sadness or discomfort of any kind.

I hold a vision of this world where joy, elation, fear and sadness are recognized as inner markers for how close we are feeling to God at any moment. If we want to feel closer, then we simply release our grief and in doing so, make room to expand our joy.

Notice how no violence of any kind is necessary or desired in this honest world. Connections between us just dance deeper, until someday, we’ll be done with releasing grief and the forgiveness of all deeds will be complete. The At-Onement, which lives eternally inside us, will be manifest on Earth, and we will notice that we’ve created a garden, you and me….a delightful, heavenly garden of peace.

Last night I saw a wonderful documentary on the history of the environmental organization, Greenpeace.

Greenpeace: Making A Stand (by producer/director Leigh Badgley, 2006)

There was some great, inspiring footage of the early years, when brave young people went out in small boats to act as human shields, placing themselves between the harpoons of immense commercial whaling ships and the huge and vulnerable bodies of the hunted whales. Their actions were non-violent and damaged no property. In the style of the Quakers, they “bore witness”, and showed the world with powerful photographs the truth of what was happening in the world’s oceans.

The film also showed more recent actions in Argentina, where environmentalists are struggling to save large tracts of forest, and the culture of the indigenous people who live there, from bulldozers. Each day, many football fields worth of forest are being cut to make way for soybean crops, which last a few years and then leave a desert of denuded soil.

As I watched with deep admiration for Greenpeace, I thought – and what of the whalers, and the bulldozer drivers? What compels them to go to work each morning? The simple answer is, “It’s a job – they need to feed their families.” But most of us need jobs, and we find something else to do.

Rather than being satisfied with a simple answer, I ask another question: What if these people learned of Peace….enjoying immediate contact with their own divine essence….and could no longer go to work each day as killers of biosystems, as rapists of Mother Earth? What if they woke up to their innocence in God, no matter what it looks like, no matter what they’ve done? What if we all chose a day, a moment, or a lifetime to focus on Peace and to affirm our innocence, and no blame was possible? What a wonderful world awaits us in this vision….

After watching the film, I am recommitting to my love and dedication to peace activism. We can all offer something of the goodness of our hearts. What is your offering? I want to share it with you, because we cannot wake up alone – only together.

Today, let’s remember the brave ones who’ve shown us the way. Let’s hug someone in the spirit of Peace….in the spirit of Greenpeace.

A Course in Miracles states that the first obstacle to peace is “desiring to get rid of it”.  I’ve been watching myself experience deep states of peace, and then fall asleep to mySelf…..ending up having gotten rid of what I wanted.  So, the only thing I know to do is to relax into Divine Love in order to “get it back”.  Like I’ve said before – Peace didn’t go anywhere.  I just need to return to it, over and over, until I strengthen my inner muscles, and I don’t leave anymore.

I want Peace so bad I can taste it.  How about you?

Here is a poem by Mary Oliver, my all time favorite poet.  If you don’t know her work, go immediately to your library or nearest bookstore and feast upon her brilliance.  I offer this poem because it is so simple, and speaks to the necessity of forgiveness when walking our clear path to peace.

The Uses Of Sorrow

(In my sleep I dreamed this poem)

Someone I loved once gave me

a box full of darkness.

It took me years to understand

that this, too, was a gift.

        — Mary Oliver, Thirst