Feeling slightly or majorly insane
What a time of upheaval and change! And what a time of no upheaval and no change at all!
I don’t know about you, but the past week has been a time when all of my *&#! came up. Any place where I wasn’t trusting my connection to the One came to greet me with a devilish grin. Yikes! What an unpleasant crash into a hell world of my own creation. I notice that I get really bent out of shape if I get worried about the future. In reality, in this moment I’m fine…doing my thing, healthy, with a roof over my head and all the blessings of my beautiful life…
In my imagined future, I can create all sorts of scary possibilities. And it sucks. Reeling my mind back to this moment NOW has taken all of my patience, strength and self-love. I know I am not alone. Everyone I work with and play with is also feeling this deep inner challenge of remaining present in the Presence…or losing our way and coming back…So if you are feeling slightly or majorly insane these days, go into your heart and reach out to all of your teammates…the incredible souls around the world (and beyond) who are committed to the awakening of Love and Peace and Health and Justice on Earth. There are millions of us, and we are strong. Tap into the group determination that we yield, especially if you’ve temporarily lost your way.
Together, we awaken. Together, we support each other and learn to love Life. God is perfect love. And so are we.
Ana,
Since the beginning of October, I too joined the group of “temporarily” insane. I feel I have lost it and the fear that overcomes me is that “temporary” will move into permanent. I realize that my lifeline is the present moment but I haven’t been able to sustain it very long before going back to being temporarily insane. I tell myself that The Now is managable, and this is my refuge when all my @##*!comes up, but underneath my insanity lies anger…and under the anger a deep grief that you have talked about, a grief that I can’t seem to get a handle on..at least not yet. I’m trying and I appreciate your sharing and your encouragement. Peace, Farrrah
Comment by Farrrah Cano — October 20, 2008 @ 9:36 am