Forgiveness lessons: Losing my Gold
Recently I’ve been playing with a solid gold coin. It’s a quarter ounce gold piece – round, shiny, and dripping with golden abundance. I’ve been holding it in my hand as a way to bring the gold into my life, both on the inner plane as a holy blessing and on the outer plane as prosperity in all I am and all I do.
A few days ago, I lost the coin. I couldn’t find it anywhere, though I did all the sensible things -checked my pants pockets, retraced my steps, etc. I began to feel sad that it had disappeared, and angry with myself for losing it. Damn! I liked that coin! I saw my attachment, my assumption about what it meant to me, my annoyance with my irresponsibility. And the little thing is worth about $200, on top of it all.
Anyway, the next day I taught my first Uncovering Your Inner Rumi devotional poetry workshop. A wonderful group gathered in Mount Shasta, CA, to explore writing devotional poetry together. Since I was thinking about the gold coin, I wrote about a poem about it during the workshop. Here it is:
O Beloved
give me back my gold!
I lost it…yet could I ever lose it?
Jesus, your golden grace
coalesced in my hand
Lakshmi, I prayed for your help
Gone now
poof! it flew into the Mystery
Here is the teaching
if I dare:
never lost,never taken
this golden glow of mine.
Well, I really prayed that the coin would reappear, since I’d now gotten the lesson. A friend helped me search once more, and lo and behold – I found it! Where, you might ask? On my altar, where I’d placed it for safe-keeping, beside an image of the Hindu Goddess Lakshmi, goddess of grace, beauty and abundance.I had to laugh. Lakshmi had me covered – the whole time! Another life lesson: Divine Love holds my golden grace, even when I’ve forgotten it, and forgotten where I’ve put it. So good to know.



Wow. Great story! I’m currently blocked to such miracles, and I believe “forgiveness” is a potent key for me. Looking forward to melding with it.
Comment by Daniel — March 12, 2010 @ 12:51 pm
Dear Ana, thank you for such an inspiring and heart felt story, and beauty of poetry to match… I feel the love.
Blessings!
Louie
Comment by Louie Clearheart — March 22, 2010 @ 1:48 am